So big I can barely stand it!

Some days, I just look at Caroline and can't believe how BIG she is!  Yesterday was one of those days.  Don't know if it was the big girl outfit or the two "ponies" or the attitude she seemed to get upon getting those two ponies... but she definitely seemed like a big girl and not any bit of a baby.  Yes, yes, I'm glad she isn't in a perpetual state of babyhood. It's kind of nice sometimes that she can actually do things I ask her to do (like go get your shoes and put them on...) but in the same breath, I sometimes miss her dependence on me.  ("Mommy, I can do it!")  Guess it's just part of letting your children grow and learning how to let go.  At least it's a slow process that takes place over many, many days/months/years!

Maybe it's the pregnancy hormones kicking in when I get to thinking about these kind of things.  I've been thinking about the new baby a lot lately (especially since we find out tomorrow if it's a boy or girl and I have just started to feel the new baby moving, barely!).  It's hard to remember how little babies are when they are first born and how VERY dependent they are.  I'm looking forward to it again.  I'm sure it will be different having two, the new baby will probably not get as much attention as Caroline did and probably not be held as much as Caroline was, but that's ok, the new baby will have the extra love of a big sister.  I'm really excited to see how life will be with two little ones (and hopefully more someday too).  Caroline will be such a big helper, I know.  So ultimately, I'm glad she's such a big girl!